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Monday, January 08, 2007

woe is me

dying


since i don't have a really pathetic photo of myself to share, you get pretty but dying roses. don't read this post unless you're ready to watch me play my tiny violin while i cry to myself. i am not doing well. not. at. all. some days you just feel so bad you have to tell someone. anyone that'll listen. i am tense. i am tired. i am sick. again! i'm grumpy. i'm annoyed. i have no. more. patience. i want to bury myself into a foot of covers and die for the day. i have two sick, whiny babies that i can't seem to help because they just keep crying. my head feels like it's going to split right in two... one half for each of them. my shoulders are so tense i imagine they could hold just about anything. and they probably are. i have pressure in my chest, a sore throat, and an icky cough. i'm torturing myself by thinking about a photography job i can't take. i'm all around feeling sorry for myself about now.

end of rant.

14 Comments:

Anonymous Dreamer said...

Joleen, I don't think there's anything I can do to make this better but I just want to say that I hope this rough patch in your life will pass. We all know how life can be, it can really wear you out.

I won't give you advice because I don't know everything that goes on in your world but know that I listened to you and did not judge you. My only suggestion is that you can make decisions that will benefit your well being, whatever they may be. I must add your photos of your seff are anything but pathetic. You inspred me to want to do a month of moi.

I'm not even sure I helped but hopefully you do feel that your blog buddies are here to support you :)

11:47 AM  
Blogger Love Squalor said...

yep, have had many of *those* days myself. but they always pass. hope you feel better soon - i'm sending hugs and sunny days your way :)

11:59 AM  
Blogger Jes said...

Big E~HUGS coming your way!

I KNOW...I was like that all Fall right up till Christmas! I was starting to annoy myself!!! It SUCKS being sick and run down all of the time!

I'll think good thoughts just for you today! xoxoxo

12:00 PM  
Blogger aunt kim said...

Dear Joleen,

Oh the pain I feel for you right now! I don't miss those days at all. It's one thing to have to deal with your own body and illness but to add two more bodies to the equation...not fun at all. I just wish we lived closer to one another...

On a lighter note, your mom mentioned the dimmetap in a precious post. That might be a good idea right about now :)

Hugs and kisses to you!

1:29 PM  
Blogger gkgirl said...

awwww...man
that totally sucks.

hope you ALL feel better soon!

3:16 PM  
Blogger AnastasiaC said...

oh hugs to you...hope you feel better soon!
take care of yourself!

4:34 PM  
Anonymous Laurie G. said...

I can totally relate (except luckily not sick--that would really suck). Perhaps it's some post-holiday exhaustion, and the inevitable low before an an invigorating spring-back in the new year. Glad things are looking better as of your later post. Hang in there. All is well!!!! xo --L.

4:47 PM  
Blogger Joleen's Mom said...

Oh my goodness....I knew I was getting wierd vibes from your end of town. I'm a day late on reading this, and definately hope you're feeling better. I do wish we lived closer; I'd try to help. Here's a hug from Mom. Do you want company on Friday?

7:49 PM  
Blogger *aimee* said...

I love you.

4:25 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Who are you kidding? You KNOW you need at least ONE extra pair of hands. Don't be afraid to ask for them. I wish I had done that (asked a friend/neighbor/babysitter for help)when I was raising my children, but I tried to tough it out alone. Husband had given his best at the office and didn't have a whole lot left to give at day's end. That takes its toll. This is going to happen again, so next time, reach out and ask for help, OK? Rachel

12:34 PM  
Anonymous Titiracious said...

WOW...I don't have kids myself but I know it must be frustrating...I have a 9 yr old stepson and sometimes I just want to get under a pile of covers and scream too! but after all he's just a kid and I love him.

4:17 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Another clue Lowe's is the good one::::Katrina cottage plans.

http://www.lowes.com/lowes/lkn?action=productList&Ntt=plans&Ntk=i_products&category=Katrina%20Cottage%20Plans&N=0+5002245

In this era of preditory developers building massive new homes (ie SUVs) it is quite refreshing to see Lowe's promote modest single family structures.
Looking in Denver these are the kinds of homes I am looking at. To move into a brand new structure would be key, especially in Denver:::::Full insulation, no dreaded leakage leading to high heating bills. No ghosts and no history.
As with all things::::Redwhite&blue IS BAD FOR YOU!!!! Much like some Walmarts, some Lowe's stores are redwhite&blue color scheme:::Assume its a clue that these towns are disfavored and it would be wise to GET THE FUCK OUT!!!
Bet that Oldsmobile was the only good American auto manufacturer left and now they're gone.

The 80s era of M&A and integration with/controlling interest by evil entities has eliminated good from the marketplace.
In this era of Manifest Destiny positioning the gods have the preditory disfavored steal from the good disfavored::::
1. Microsoft stole Windows from Apple Computer/SteveJobs/Wozniac
2. Alexander Graham Bell stole the telephone from Elisha Grey
3. Waffle House's business model was stolen by many entities who copied the style and stole market share. HOLDING BACK THE COFFEE IS A TACTIC THE GODS USE TO SEND THE DISFAVORED ELSEWHERE and a clue they are good::::Coffee is bad for you.
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When it comes to Walmart they really didn't expereince a M&A phase that I'm aware of, so expect the redwhite&blue clue to only be in effect in the South:::All Walmarts in California are evil. Howevery, they said Costco/PriceClub merger paved the way for the presence of Sam'sClub on the WestCoast, and they share that Sam'sClub is good, but again that might only be here in the west where they compete with evil Costco.
I'd like to remind people Sam'sClub's presence is in the InlandEmpire while Costco does business in WestLA.
As far as NorthernCalifornia goes Concord is the only BayArea Sam'sClub location, and for a reason:::SanFranciscoBayArea is The Beast, geographic clue sent as Manifest Destiny sculpted the shoreline.
Sam'sClub is more expensive than Walmart for a reason.

None of this is important. In the end they are ALL BrainLessCloneHosts and they will all be used in the same way:::To prey on the disfavored.
The M&A/evil acquisition of controlling interest allows the gods to justify the elimination of this so-called "help", none of which ever existed. Any perception otherwise was deceptive, used as corruptors, much like the Presidents of the United States streets example.
The Italian boot and Scandanavian penis pissing on Europe as the Vikings did both prove the positioning that is Manifest Destiny is all a scam.
My advice is understand the Amish clue and live simply and strive for purity.

4:56 PM  
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5:27 AM  

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