{looking for good}

today isn't really any better than yesterday. actually, it started off much worse. i'm not trying to wallow but i think sometimes i't's okay to have a bad day. sometimes people are too quick to try and "fix" things or to say chin up when i just want to have a good cry. i need the bad days, too, to deal with some of the things i've been through or am going through now. besides the usual, my charge has shifted to full on two-year-old behavior. she's hit me for the first and second time out of anger, this week. she's started undressing herself which resulted in a freshly bathed babe, waking up with no pants or diaper on, laying in a pool of her own pee. ew. just dealing with those "normal" things and so much more. i've decided i need to start talking about these things, and caring just a little less about who reads. this is MY space and i have the right to share with friends. *sigh* ok! changing gears here...

i want to post some "happy" things in hopes to help me out of my funk. i think i've become a bit obsessed with carving my own stamps! there are more here, here, and here. and speaking of stamps- our winner of the contest is nienke of red colander!

please email me at joleenieweenie AT hotmail DOT com for your prize! (i'm still keeping it under wraps until she recieves it!) this is going to be like the world's longest post because i want to show you some things that make me happy. you can view more here.

my camera battery is dead so i'm not sure i'll get in my self portrait today. just in case i don't, here is one i took of me and alex a few days ago. i love this man.